DRUNKEN THOUGHTS

The night before, I made you mad,

I wasn't appreciating, the love that I had,

I came home so drunk, I was really quite late,

I left you alone, sitting home there to wait.

I was too self involved, I wasn't using my head,

Alcohol took over, its hunger I fed,

I was drinking too often, I thought I was fine,

Too blinded to realize, the problem was all mine.

I was never mad at you, I was mad at myself,

I let life pass me by, seemed it was on the back shelf,

I blamed all of my problems, on everyone but me,

Destined for ruins, and alone I would be.

I made a bad choice, I should have been there with you,

My greatest mistake, and there was nothing I could do,

I tried to get sober that night, but made it worse than you know,

I hated myself, cause I resorted to blow.

That night I never came home, cause I felt too much shame,

You'd be able to tell, and there was only me I could blame,

I text you that night, to say tomorrow I would call,

The next day with a hangover, I would for-get that all.

I went through my next days, scared you'd be mad,

Hiding ashamed, not thinking you were sad.

I forgot I had hurt you, I couldn't remember last night,

My words cut you deep, on the phone in our fight.

You wanted to love me, to work through it all out,

I didn't know that, I was too scared you would shout,

I gave it some time, to get my head straight,

I took way too long, how long should you wait?

You had now left me, When I got my priorities in line,

I wanted to marry you, but you were no longer mine,

I cried and I lost it, how could I mess up so bad,

this had all happened, cause I spent to much time being mad.

I got over my issues, I finally see clear,

I was drinking and hiding, I had too much fear,

The old me is gone, but how could you know,

I wish I still had you, how I wish that was so.